And if there is anything I have learned in the past few weeks is that you really can’t plan out your life. Life will always throw you curve balls and some times you’ll fall so hard on your ass that you don’t know what hit you. I’ve learned that you can’t put all your eggs in one basket and to ALWAYS have a back up plan. Life has been tough for a few months and I really just needed to stop and regroup. Change is always necessary when moving forward- you can’t make progress if you’re backpedaling. Most importantly you’ve got to take advantage of your resources. I’ve been sincerely great full of the people who are picking me back onto my feet. Life always gets better, you’ve just got to be willing to try.
For now, baby steps are steps none the less. You’ve got to start somewhere.
I’m just feeling super unmotivated and lazy. Maybe the heat is really getting to me or maybe I really am just this miserable. I don’t know what I’m doing with my life. I made the right decision by getting out of Indiana but I don’t know what the next step is for me. My life needs more direction. I need a change and I need a sign.
Whatever it is I need it soon bc I’m losing my mind.